From: Lydia <Lydia@purplefabrics.com> Date: Fri, July 3, 2020 at 2:33 PM Subject: Bible Study To: Apollo <apollo@purplefabrics.com>
Hi Honey,
I'm writing you an email because I can explain better when I write.
Well, it helps me to organize my thoughts.
I wasn't saying that I don't want to do the Bible study with this group anymore.
I was just saying that I don't feel a connection with this group.
I don't know what it is...
I don't know if it's me or if it's them.. or maybe it's this group dynamic.
Every group has its own personality separate from the individuals in the group.
I feel like our conversations are forced, contrived.
Our conversations move in a jerky, abrupt way like someone's stepping on the breaks every few steps.
One person says something and then, there's a dead silence. Then another person says something that is completely unrelated to the previous comment. It's like you hit a ball and instead of the other person hitting your ball back, they let the ball drop, pick up and hit a new ball. Then there's no one to receive the new ball, the new ball drops and another one picks up yet another new ball. Does that make sense?
I've been in other Bible study groups before and I always looked forward to the meetings.
But with this group, I kinda dread it every week.
I don't know know if I'm getting anything out of it and wonder if anyone else feels that way too.
I know we're all different.
We all come from different walks of life.
I'm probably the most different.
They seem so pristine. I know you'll tell me otherwise.
But I feel like I am the only one with a checkered past.
That's all.
I'll pray about it.
Lydia~